A very long prayer for desperate moments

This prayer can be read slowly, and repeatedly if necessary, to lift your spirit in a time of darkness or despair. 

Dear God
I sit here before you and I no longer know who I am.
I am lost in this world and I do not know which way to turn for help.
My life is not what I wanted it to be and I do not know how to change its direction.

Dear God
I am looking for comfort in my heart.
I am looking for peace in my soul.
I am looking for joy in my life.

But I feel far away from all of these.

Dear God
Please be quietly with me as I talk to you and start to climb up out of the darkness.
Please let me gently feel your presence as my true friend.
Please lift me softly towards the light I am so desperately seeking.

Dear God
I am here.
I am waiting for you.
I am here.

There is nothing I can do right now but talk to you, in the quiet of my mind. I am whispering my hopes all mixed with fears as I speak to you, hoping you are there, listening to me.

I have been in the dark. My sight has been covered over so I could only see despair. My spark was almost extinguished.

But I saw a tiny light, shining in all that darkness.
And I knew it was you.
I came closer to see if it was true. It was hard to see clearly. Sometimes it disappeared from my view and I was in darkness again. But then faintly, so faintly, it flickered again and I came a little closer.

I could not turn away from your light and yet it is hard to face your brightness. And so I talk. I talk to you. I talk to myself. I talk to all of Creation. I talk to Life. I talk to the spark of life that still burns inside me, the spark of you, held out in front of me, ever burning, ever bright and never-ending. I have no words to say but I must talk. I must step out of my internal darkness. I must come closer to the light, just one step by one step by one step. I am talking to you so I do not feel alone. I am talking to you in hope. I am talking to you because I want to feel your love again.

Dear God
I went so far away and yet you are so close to me. I can feel you entering my heart, entering my soul. They say you are always there but I could not feel you. I was numb, blinded by my own pain. But yet I could not resist your spark, your flash of light in the darkness, your tiny ray of hope. And so I looked up, and as I did so the light became stronger. I was afraid, but I looked some more. I no longer want to turn away.

I lift up my eyes, I lift up my head and I lift up my heart. I turn to the light and face the light, steady in its brightness. The light is shining into my soul. I want to turn away but I am here. I can be seen. I am open. The light is shining bright. I cannot turn away. I am drawn to the light, as it grows and pulls me forward in the direction of life.

As the light is dancing in front of me the darkness in my soul is lost. Overcome by one small spark. Dancing bright, beauty uplifted.

I am drawn to the light, as if on a string, a beam of white, unbreakable and so fine. I do not know what is happening to me. I am losing myself. My darkness is falling away. It is bright and I no longer know myself but I am here. The light is shining. I am not afraid. I can be seen. All is open, all is clear, all is bright. I am here.

It is quiet around me. The sound of my mind is stilled. I am alive, I am alight. I look around in wonder. This is not the world I was in so few minutes ago. This is a world of infinte grace. It is a world dancing in the beauty of life. This is a world of peace, where all is at one with itself. I am in this world and the world is in me. It flows over, around and through me as if I am not here, but I am here. I am in this world, completely and totally. I am the world and the world is me.

I am open to beauty, joy and infinite peace. I am surrounded, immersed in love. I am a light, a flame dancing in a world of brightness – infinite shades of brightness. Sparkling beyond my imagination away in the distance, for ever sparkling – light upon light upon light.

I am uplifted by one single spark into a world of unending glorious beauty. I am united with my soul and my life unfolds before me in unending delight. I am fired with joy and carried by unending love.

I am alive.

Thank you, Dear God.

16 Comments

  1. Please help me to have abundance and prosperity in my life thru your prayers. I am 56 years old unemployed Filipino seaman. I can not be hired anymore because of my age. I am drowning with mountains of bills and credits need to be paid soonest.I have some health issues also that is why I can not support my family. Please help me to find an employment or source of income other than my line of job to support my family.

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    • I hope with my heart you found a job, sending lots of good energies your way. Please, do not give up.

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    • By his stripes your problems are over love you. God loves you believe it in Jesus mighty name it is done

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    • Brother we are in this together believe in the name of our king Jesus through his blood shed for both of us we reclaim our destiny as planned by eloim our father and the holy spirit living in us joy prosperity elimination of debts and abundance of finances that we will sow back for the glory of our fathers revival I Jesus name we rejoice…amen we are in the same path brother but both of us will be a witness of God’s glory because of what he just did for us God bless.

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  2. I love love love this pray …..thank you so much

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  3. Please pray for me.. I am 60 years old… my husband of 25 years left me for a young woman. I lost my home and my income. I lost my brother last Christmas and right after, my mom had a stroke. I got involved with a married man and I’m so lonely and confused… I’ve lost who I am…. please help me…

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    • I am praying for you pray for me please

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  4. I feel like if I was reading about myself when I read this prayer. I need prayer it seems that every vehicle that I have own seems to break and if not I buy a car that turns out to be a lemon car so I am in dire need of a car. Our working trucks also have broken so I cry out to anyone I can hear the sound of my heart and I ask you to please pray for my family my husband and I that we get good vehicles to be able to move around we are in our 60 years of age.

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  5. I am on the verge of a break down. I feel so hopeless and lost. Raised in a single parent household and watching my mother struggle became my motivation to become successful for the sake of my family and myself. Unfortunately as tough as some people consider me to be. I learned to cover my pain of not having a father and losing my first love in a car accident with drugs hiding my addiction from my family and friends. I’ve worked hard accomplished many of my goals inspired people who grew up like myself to have faith and not give up. I feel like I’m giving up myself. Six months ago my contract as an insurance agent for a well known company was terminated for an honest mistake I committed. Thankfully another company took me on but because I do not have authority to bind policies I’ve been unable to write business. Which means Im not making any money. Im $1500 behind on my office rent and just received an eviction notice.I am 2 months late on my mortgage.I contacted my home insurance because water has been coming inside my home. Due to someone incorrectly removing a patio that was built with no permit by the previous owners and now 13 feet of my wall needs to be replaced along with a list of other things. To make matters worse 3 months ago my partner of almost 12 years left me and my 6 year old daughter . It kills me to see my daughter suffer because I know exactly how it feels to feel the pain she is feeling. My addiction has spiraled out of control and I hate myself for it all. I feel like Ive let my daughter down in so many ways I can barely handle the pain. I am desperate for God to help me find a way. Because I feel like such a failure at 29 years old I feel like Ive accomplished and dealt with so much and yet Ive accomplished nothing. I desperately am crying out to be taken out of this pit I cant seem to take myself out of.

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  6. I feel as if my life is crashing and there is no hope … Alcohol has caused me so much of problems in the past 4 years of my life and every time I decide to stop I end up drinking over and over again … Please help me

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    • David, I feel the same as you. So lost feeling no hope. Alcohol is ruining me. I can’t seem to get anyone to help me. I’m desperate. I need help. Dear lord, please help me.

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  7. Please help me Dear God. I feel so alone. I know I am a sinner as you say I am. But I have been wronged. I can’t find my occupation in life. I feel so lost. I feel like I wasted my life away. I made decisions I shouldn’t have made. I persuedy dreams only for them to come crashing down. I have been made a failure by people who don’t know me or my life. My life was laid bare for all to see. My heart is broken and I don’t see the light. Please Dear Lord, Dear Jesus Christ why did you abandon me?

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  8. Dearest Lord, I thought I have found the person that I will spend with the rest of my life. Yet I have realized that all of it was a lie. He is someone who is a Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He is a pathological liar, he cheats and enjoys triangulation, he is devoid of empathy. I felt like he is evil in its personification. Lord, you know that I am not exaggerating this. I am tired and so weary. I don’t know how to move forward. Everything is a lie. Please save me from this pit of darkness. Please please please help me. Please help me Lord. Please deliver me from this evil.

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  9. Please pray for me. I have lost my entire life earnings in a business and am in so much debt. I am tired of fighting life. I each day contemplate ending it all. I have an 8 yr old so I stick but even she is far way I see no hope I am in this situation for past 2 years…god are you there

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  10. I came here looking for some hope and peace of mind for me and my family because I don’t feel I can take much more. But I hope and pray that everyone here has also found some peace and a way forward.

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  11. Dear God please help me. My finances are in ruins and I’m caring for my child who is ill please answer my prayers!

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